When is “Enough” Enough?
“Why do you want to cut off your hair? It’s not gonna grow any more than this.”
Determined as I was to prove the disparaging assertion wrong, the notion behind it lingered over the course of my natural hair journey. It was the notion that if I never grew my hair past a certain length, all my time and energy and effort would have been for nothing.
It was often the case that I could know, deep down, why I cut off my hair and went natural. Yet, I still wavered on why it was worth the try. I would recite the frustration and futility I experienced with relaxed hair, but were those experiences reason enough to warrant such a drastic change?
When “Enough” is Enough
“If my light cannot ever shine steady or bright enough to matter, why bother to shine at all?”
There it was again. It wasn’t enough that I was coming apart at the seams mentally and emotionally–not enough that I was barely eating or taking care of myself. I had to snap.
I had to lose my light to value it. I had to lose myself to appreciate who I am when I am in a good place. That person is funny, creative, productive, and positive. That person is comfortable in her natural coils. And if that person were anyone else, I’d think that would be enough reason to be her fullest self.
Learning about self-care challenged my definitions of “enough” the same way going natural did. Sometimes, I don’t need any grander goal than to prevent harm,I don’t need any reason greater than myself, and my light doesn’t need to be brilliant to make a difference.
I define enough.
New Growth is a series on how I got to self-care through hair. I’m talking about going natural, and I’m talking about dealing with depression. Neither journey is easy. So, feel free to leave a comment or a link below. Don’t forget to like, share this with anyone whom you think needs it, and subscribe. You can also follow me on my other platforms via the links in the sidebar.